Self-Doubt is Our Enemy
“Fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”
In looking back over my early childhood, I remember many times when I was full of doubt and fear. I was always the cautious one, afraid to do things that were new, that I did not understand or feel comfortable with. I realized that in the past, during my childhood, I was told many times that I couldn’t do something because I would fail, or I was compared to others and I didn’t measure up to them. My life was full of doubt about myself. Thankfully God did not abandon me! He graciously walked beside me each day and through each moment of my life, whether negative or positive, sad or joyous, full of doubt or confidence. He has always been with me and will continue to call me into his loving arms. It is now up to me to take actions to heal and move on from this. I must move forward so that I can accomplish the goals he has set out for me to accomplish.
Doubts come to all of us throughout our lives. It is in times of doubting that we can grow closer to God. It is when we are stretched and molded that we are changed and shaped into the person God desires for us to be. God does not cause us to doubt things in our lives, this is from the enemy in this world. God does use the conditions of doubt we find ourselves in to help us grow stronger and closer to him.
In searching the scriptures, we can find many examples of God using the doubts of people to grow their faith in themselves and in God. I am comforted when I read about Abraham, Moses, David, Paul and others, even “people after God’s own heart” had periods of doubt and their faith was challenged. The best example for us is Jesus Christ. We need to look to him as our model on how to live. Jesus was face with many opportunities to be doubtful. In the wilderness he was tempted by the devil who tried to create doubt in his mind that God was truthful, faithful, and would protect him. But he did not sin. He was scorned, called a liar, made fun of, and many more degrading things. But even in times when his faith was under the sharpest attacks, he never gave up, never lost heart and never showed doubt or fear. He remained obedient to God and stood firm. He learned obedience by his suffering. In the garden of Gethsemane, as he was facing his death he was under the deepest time of agony for what he knew he had to faced. Even though he asked for God to remove the trials he had to face, he remained faithful by saying in Matthew 26:39 “Yet not as I will, but as you will.” And in Matthew 26: 42 “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”
Our past experiences can either breed failure or success. It is in our thoughts and actions that we can overcome our failures. When asked about his failures, Thomas Edison said “I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” Look at all the things we have today because he did not give into his failures and overcame his own doubts and fears. I heard a pastor once say that when things are “difficult” in my eyes it is because God is preparing me for something so much better than what I have now. We need to remember this. Always look to God for answers, trust in his faithfulness, and his plans for your life. It is in remaining in God’s presence through prayer and reading the Holy Scriptures that we can deflect and overcome the darts thrown at us by our adversary and our enemy, Satan.
Thanks be to God for always walking with me and surrounding me with his love and protection. Your loving Daughter
“Be merciful to those who doubt.”
“weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”
All scripture is from the NIV version
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